Where did my happiness go?
"Where did my happiness go?"
This was the EXACT question I found myself asking not so long ago. I mean, I had a lot of great STUFF. And I was busy as hell...dropping the kids off at a million activities, volunteering, working a full-time job, going to school, hosting endless parties and attending family events.
Why did I feel STUCK instead of happy?
Life felt more like shades of gray, then the end of a rainbow. I felt like I was stuck on “Loop”. With the same boring ass song playing as the soundtrack of my life.
Here comes the GUILT.
I thought, “How could I not feel happy”. “What kind of A-hole complains when they have everything?” “I can’t tell anyone, they will think I am crazy!” “Geez, my husband will think it’s HIM.” “Hey, I know...I will just do MORE. Volunteer more, go to school more, do more with the kids, clean more, throw more parties, More..More...MORE!!”
I hit rock bottom
My “More” brought me MORE unhappiness. It also brought me more resentment, more conflict, more isolation and more unhealthy behaviors.
I realized, my happiness did not leave me, I left it
With every decision that took me away from my values, with every need I created for external validation, each and every time I chose not to make myself and my well being a priority.
If my story is your story, I have just one question, “What is it costing you?”
Your happiness does not have to feel like a distant memory.
I can show you how. With just one conversation you can begin to see what is possible.
There is just one thing that I want you to know for sure, YOU are worth the effort.